i want to be with her :)

i like her loads. but is she dumb? i dont know her and ive got lots of thoughts, i shouldnt judge, i shouldnt care. and i dont. everything about her is amazing. i like her, i love her.

i need to not care, i dont care at all. i dont give a fuckk. my life, im in control and im being amazing and doing the best.

bought some fucking ridiculous clothes, what the fuck am i playing at? im a fucking sheep.
hate work so much. im so scarred about it, i still dont know who i really am. i dont know how to fucking act round people, they are fucking dicks. loving life but so much i need to get out and so much i need to do. what the fuck am i saying? im living for now, and now is amazing. im not scarred of anything or anywhere. i dont even know why im writing this blog. im going to be the best.

ive been thinking about her lots and acting like a fucking fool
what am i doing? i dont really care, i dont even know who she is, im thinking about this way too much. i dont give a fuckkk. i need to stop caring
got so much on my mind, so much im hiding still. the world needs to see me.

so fucking frustrating from being fucking ill, its so annoying. ive been really upset about it, wasting time and doing nothing while i feel like fucking shit the whole time. i dont fucking need this, not right now. feel like theres so much goddam cuntish pressure it can fuck off. what the fuck is wrong with my swollen stomach, my insides arnt right. im not fucking happy right now, im so upset.

fuckkkkk i dont care i jus need to express myself

i want to show the world
i am not going to fucking hold back
this is my time

whitchurch
lots of ideas whizzing round
i need to make a statement
i need to get my ideas out
i need to stop being ill
arrgggg its so annoying
fuckkkkkkk
who am i

sweets

i love metal